She Switched Sides
This past weekend of course flew by. I mean, let's be honest - it's not like any of them really creep.
So, I did something different with my Sunday Funday and I wanted to share. I stepped out of my comfort zone for a whole sixty-four minutes. It was probably a little longer if you include my wardrobe change, but really who's counting?
I'm not a fan of New Year's Resolutions but I knew this year I wanted to do a revamp to my blog. Nothing major, just a few tweaks. Something to catch your eye and not so dullsville. That's where this photoshoot came in.
I've been planning a fun shoot with a girlfriend and fantastic photographer in LA (Shout out to Rae - hey honey!), but until then - I knew I needed Alex Martin's sweet photog skills. You can stalk and follow him on the Gram here.
I've always been behind the camera. Selfie's obviously don't count. It's easy to take your own picture. I know my good side, how I like my curls to fall, and which way I want the light to hit my cheek bones.
Giving somebody else control of your face is NOT easy. That sounds weird but it's true. Alex did an amazing job making me feel comfortable. He knew when the lighting was right, which angle looked best, and oddly enough - when my curls fell the right way. Me doing photography for so long I was overly critical of myself.
Once I got the images back I realized I shouldn't have been. Stepping out of my comfort zone felt amazing. Trusting somebody else with my face for just that small amount of time was new to me, but so worth it in the end. It wasn't just my face that I had to trust Alex with. It was my brand. These images would be plastered across my blog at some point and be the "face" of 'A Bloggin' Crow'.
Switching sides isn't something I thought I'd do as a photographer. Let me stop calling myself a photographer. I love photography, but the most photography I do now is with my handy dandy iPhone 7 Plus. I haven't touched my camera in months. Sad face.
One thing I learned from this shoot is that it was a huge confidence booster. Which was needed at this time in my life. We all need to step out of our comfort zone every now and then. I'm working on that my damn self. People have always told me that I'm photogenic but that doesn't mean I've done anything with it.
I promise I'm not vain. I have insecurities like every other female. Let me also not limit that to just females. I know men have them too. But, we as women tend to critique the smallest things about ourselves. For me, my boobs are too big. I'm petite at five-foot-tall, 130 lbs., and a 32G. So, no matter what I wear I feel huge. Men love them, I hate them.
There's nothing wrong with a good confidence boost. Social media does its job to make us feel that we need to look a certain way, have a certain number of friends, or a pretty significant dollar amount in the bank to be worthy of love and 'likes'.
A piece of advice I can give after being in front of the lens for a change - step outside your box. Fuck what any and everybody else thinks - INCLUDING YOUR OWN PRETTY LIL' SELF.
I don't know how many more shoots will come my way, if any. But when they do, I promise I'll let the photog decide which way they want my curls to fall, which cheekbone the light should hit, and whatever angle makes my boobs look the best.